The thing is I really do like myself. I mean, I like who I am as a person. My personality, my interests, the way I present myself, how I treat other people. Of course there's a few things I would like to tweak here and there, but overall, I don't hate myself at all. It's more me vs. the world that causes me problems. Or, the way I react to that world. I suppose that's what causes me the most grief. It's like, I'm so great at giving advice but so bad at handling my own life. I don't react the way I know that I should, not really. Maybe it's an immaturity thing, I'm not sure why I do it. I hate how my parents will call me selfish, because I truly don't believe that I am. I do however believe that a person needs to put themselves first. Like, when you're on a plane, if the air masks come out of the ceiling, you're supposed to put one on yourself before you put one on the person next to you, even if it's a little kid. Because if you pass out, you're certainly not going to be able to help anybody else. I think that applies to life too. I mean, sure you can do things to help people out, but it won't really be fulfilling to you or others unless you have figured out your own problems first and come to some sort of peace. I don't think that means I'm selfish, though. I really do care about other people. Maybe not always equally and fairly, but I do believe that I have some altruistic qualities.
P.S. I've been cleaning my room... (I know, GASP) and I have a HUGE pile of Twilight shirts! I knew I had a lot, but seeing them all together in one pile just makes me realize how much of my money I handed over to Hot Topic! :/
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